Forgotten Past

I dun understand why those bastards like to put pple down when they see me improving ..
I have to admit i m affected by it.. but i wont stay in the affected mood for long..and you dint noe your move is dead wrong.. i m going to push harder and more determined..when i go to competition .. i dun intend to win.. my goal is to win myself and see how far can i go.. i believe through this i will surpass myself and get faster and faster..you guys better wake up..

i know wats my problem and i will correct it no matter how difficult it is..

"Do not limit yourself just because other say tt you cant do it"

Just few days ago, i broke my 200m PB .. 23.44sec ..the timing was cut down by 0.3 sec.. it was damn shocking to me.. to the extent that i match my name to the timing thrice to confirm i really did 23.44.. and team coach called me ystd to say i ran a very gd race on that day.. this really means alot to me.. as i finally get his acknowledgement that i m not just a so so runner to him..

but tt race was really amazing to me.. cuz i told i screwed it up and things dint go according to my plan..

the first 80m .. thought came to my mind "my muscles is cramping up and i think i m not running fast enough as the usual race"

through the last 20m of the curve.. i tried to take a deep breathe according to plan.. but cant seem to take a deep breathe and kind of panting for breathe like a panic situation..

i cant really describe the next 30m straight scene.. cuz as i said was kind of panic and tried to run faster..

last 40 m

i was really struggling and engine seem to stop moving.. tried my best to keep my form and i know tt my stride length is getting smaller.. but luckily i make it to the finishing line..

tt was the whole process of my 200m 23.44sec

the final was screwed up cuz i took up the challenge from the jap and sri lankan .. toe to toe on the 120m and we were on par with each other ..but i cant substain my spd and everything cramped up.. did a lousy timing due to that..

yup.. but i m damn happy to see that i finally broke my pb again..

" When you feel like going down .. there will be an angel who will whisper into your ear.. GET UP YOU SON OF A BITCH!! Cuz mickey loves you"

quote from rocky :)

And so the its the time of the year again.. but it seem so different for me in term of attitude towards training.. i think i am losing the fire for it...I hate it when i am about to reach my short term goal and fell back to bottom again..I dun seem to have much strength left to PULL myself tgt and stand up again..maybe age is catching up on me or m i too hard on myself.. i have no idea and quite tired abt it..

But be it a coincident or fate, i just happened to flip my ex gf's gift to me.. she wrote "When you feel like giving up.. remember why you held on to it for so long" Unexpected right?
but ya it happened..i wish that she is happy with her bf now :)

And as of now , i will see how long can i last.. : x

"When you feel like giving up .. remember why you held on to it for so long "

 

A song that i wrote in 2009 May for my fren

C               Em            F       G         
自从他的离去 你的天空也开始恢了  
C              Em        F                      G
在旁的我一直 再也没看见你笑了          
           Am          Em
勇敢的你 很坚强          很坚强的你

F                          G
依然静静等待着爱回来                            

Am                   Em
可是泪 在眼睛里不听话     

F                G
依然还是滑下来

C                       G                Am       Em
想到你每一天为他的一切伤心难过而哭
F                    Am                     F                  G                         
如果当初我对你说我爱你 也许就不会这样 

C                      G                        Am          Em
事到如今 我只能以好朋友的身份陪伴着你   
F                 Am               F          G              C
会有那么一天爱会再来临   我陪你等  好朋友                                     

不管以后会是什么结局 我都不会离开你