Forgotten Past

so the day 23rd November 2009 had ended..it was suppose to be an important day for both of us...but somehow nobody remember it except me...it was suppose to be 3rd year anniversary for us.. a part of me is still  counting how many months we are have been together... i miss the monthly  msg of happy 1st mth ,happy 2nd mth,happy 3rd mth,happy 4th mth happy 5th mth....time back then ..was so fast...i had thought to myself that wow we had been tgt for another month..

somehow both of us stop counting on the happy 13th mth.....that very day when we had quarrel that had destroyed both our relationship..i duno wat went wrong with me on that day...i just couldnt help thinking about it..it felt as if it had happened ystd..

but then again the blurrie that i loved is really gone..the only place that i could see my blurrie again is in my very own memory.a memory that was fading so quickly..that very scene when we were tgt n i kept watching her smiling shyly to me..and she asked me why i kept looking at her..and i told her" i want to rem this scene forever so i wont ever forget it in my life..." and her smile was so beautiful and xin fu back then... and i miss it so much..

 

 

This is a song specially for my dear blurrie.. our love may have long been forgotten by others but not by me..and i m still trying everything to not losing it...

 

'”我背着伤痛离开

孤单拖着记忆支离破碎”

“为什么相爱的人却又为爱而纷争,

现实的翅膀扰乱原本幸福的气氛”

i just cant stop thinking abt it...

how ironical was tt..wanting to protect her but yet cant protect her from myself..

I really must catch this movie after my exam..

 

修善難 ，為魔易，千年修道，不及一夜成魔

how true is tt...

well it means :" Its hard to be righteous but it is easy to be evil.A thousand year of spiritual training might still fall prey to evil”

 

and i still hold my view on it.

 

“If i am overwhelmed by evil power and start to kill innocent..please be decisive and kill me"