Forgotten Past

have been slping at 3 am or 4am....very bad habit i had nowadays... training had been good i guess... the fire is back again .. :) i just watched inception with my fellow spec ystd..how true is tt concept of idea..once is planted into a person's mind it will slowly grow and affect your whole life..

i shall not think so much abt her post becuz my Mind told me she is just probably referring to somebody who is of importance to her instead of me.plus i have not been talking to her for couple of weeks so it cant be me.

my heart dint told me tt

“你心里触动的下一首已经不是我..只要你能记得这首歌给我最爱的”

“我不舍得让你孤单单的

我爱你的心牵挂着”

10days for mourning the loss of her is enough..and is making me even more depressed at the thought of drifting away from her and it is getting further n further away from her..

and its making me crazy.. the only way to stop all this is to stop caring about her anymore..forcefully forget the existence of this person in my life.. forcefully erase all the memory between us..

If a person choose to drift away from you, that person will think of 1000ways to drift away from you..

For the past 10days, i have been abnormally calm which is so unlike me.. psychoing myself that the suffering is nth compared to my 1st ex gf..tts why i am relative rational about this..and my mind is still clear..

but somehow i just feel like i cant carry on anymore… i feel like giving up everything and i seem to lack the strength to move anymore…

just wan to lie down and think about nothing..

The bad thing is i noe that i have to be strong and i cant give up on everything.. 堅強的太久﹐感到很疲憊

Whenever i am feeling down..i will watch this video..

“When you feel like you are going down….this angel will whisper into your ear… GET UP!! YOU SON OF A BITCH!! cuz micky love you”

“Dun go down, dun go down .. hang in there”

ps: sorry for the confusing post..but i am a confused person now